wow, the last time i posted on here was October 2017…its almost March 2018.
My life has been packed with activity after activity.
Nov2017 – A levels
Dec2017- Went to Malaysia on the night of my last A level paper, had a 1 week break after returning, worked, Christmas, New Years
Jan2018 – Started training for work on the first week, went to Korea, came back and started working properly
Feb2018 – dealing with cny peak at work, A level results.
I haven’t even had time to think/worry about my results bc of all the activity. Fortunately, i was blessed with not too shabby results which im kind of shocked by but also really grateful 🙂
2018 has been a good year for me so far. I feared the uncertainty that came with 2018 but some things i have learned/are reminded about are:
-Uncertainty is not necessarily bad, it can be exciting and we should exit our comfort zones more regularly rather than sticking to what we are familiar and used to.
-Everything is relative. Without bad, there isn’t good. If we change our standards and stop comparing ourselves with the standards of the world/other people’s standards, we may never be satisfied with ourselves. The world isn’t one size fits all. We need to know our own standards.
-You lose when you give up and don’t try.
-Nothing wrong with wanting to spend your time with only the person you wanna spend your time with.
2018 also brought unfamiliar feelings and more questions.
How do you know if a friend is more than a friend?
I have a friend, we talk about a lot of things that are pretty deep. To me, those conversations are meaningful and ones that i can’t have with just anyone. I feel okay with talking about problems/worries, making myself vulnerable around him because although we aren’t the closest of friends, i somehow feel secure and trust that its safe with him. The only thing is..we talk online, not in person. Its been going on for about 4 months. I wondered if he meant something more at the end of 2017 and still wonder now. Is it the ability to be behind a screen that makes it easy to talk to him or is it that there’s something more?
ugh life’s complexities, but i guess that’s what makes it interesting, right?